Dear Cheater

Dear G

What you are doing is hurting me more than anything. I feel as though someone has ripped out my heart and left me gasping. More than that, you are hurting our family.

I know you are lying. I know that you are not just friends. Fuck it, you spend more time with her than me. You speak to her more than me. I am not convinced that you are fucking her yet, and I hope to win you back before then. You have too many secrets. Your face lights up when you talk about her. You think she is beautiful. Then there are those late night messages and I know it's her.

I love you and I want this to work. We have come too far to throw this away.

I realise that I have failings, which, in case you have not noticed, I am working on.

You have not noticed the pain because I will not cry in front of you. I will not get angry, I will not get suspicious, I will either win you back or let you hang yourself. I will not spy or snoop or look for clues. I am a better person than that.

Fuck you! I'm angry and hurting and I can't share those feelings with you.

You will notice the changes and I hope that the guilt will burn a hole in your soul.