Ready to Forgive?

Dear G,

I've been struggling with my feelings.

I've been miserable.

After your heartfelt admission and apology, I think the only way for me to get rid of the pain you have caused is by forgiving you.

I think that you have been honest.

I love you very much and I just want us to start over.

So, I FORGIVE YOU!

Dear Cheater

Dear G

What you are doing is hurting me more than anything. I feel as though someone has ripped out my heart and left me gasping. More than that, you are hurting our family.

I know you are lying. I know that you are not just friends. Fuck it, you spend more time with her than me. You speak to her more than me. I am not convinced that you are fucking her yet, and I hope to win you back before then. You have too many secrets. Your face lights up when you talk about her. You think she is beautiful. Then there are those late night messages and I know it's her.

I love you and I want this to work. We have come too far to throw this away.

I realise that I have failings, which, in case you have not noticed, I am working on.

You have not noticed the pain because I will not cry in front of you. I will not get angry, I will not get suspicious, I will either win you back or let you hang yourself. I will not spy or snoop or look for clues. I am a better person than that.

Fuck you! I'm angry and hurting and I can't share those feelings with you.

You will notice the changes and I hope that the guilt will burn a hole in your soul.

Dear Mistress

Dear D

I've thought about calling you, of coming to your workplace or home and considered attacking you on Facebook. However, in the light of the situation, I know that you will just run to him and I do not need any reasons for you to be closer than you already are.

You are a married woman and I guess you can understand why this makes me so unhappy. I just wish that you would both consider the situation as if the shoe were on the other foot. Surely your husband would not approve.

Part of me wants to fucking kill you. The other part of me wants to thank you. I have had to look into myself and have learnt a great deal while dealing with my pain.

I want you to know that I am not going to let you have him. I love him and I am going to fight back. There are things about myself that I am going to change and I am working on winning him back.

You do not have our history, our connection. You know nothing about us, our lives, our tribulations or our life together. We have an amazing sex life and there is no way that you can please him the way I do. We have sex every night.

I'm going out of my way to repair the damage you have done and ask that you stop sending him messages in the middle of the night. You can both deny it as much as you like, but I know, I fucking know.

I hope that you choke and die a very slow painful death.

Don't Let me Stop You

Please don't let me stop you.

Go right ahead....

Just don't lie to me...

I won't love you, I won't need you and you'll notice on day that I'm missing.

If she comforts you and makes you feel good, fine. I doubt whether she would put up with all that I have. But then again, you probably won't leave because you need your babysitter don't you?

I'm not going to be sad and mourn for you. I won't let you see how I am hurting. I won't even let on that I know about you. I'll save your face for your kids and only hope that they will figure it out when they are old enough to figure you out.

Let me be their stability and let me provide a constant source in their life. When they are old enough, I will leave and try to pick up the pieces of my life. I will sacrifice myself for them but not for you.

I will give myself to you so that you can never say that I did not and so that you cannot use that as an excuse to cheat. Understand that you cheat because you want to, not because there is anything lacking from our lives.

I waited so long for you and gave up so much, but I will not mourn for that either as I have chosen this life for myself.

Don't let me stop you from doing what you want to to.